---What do you do when God places a burden on your heart for someone and first they refuse to talk or have anything to do with you and then they move away? I guess the only thing you can do is pray. Big Angel left yesterday for Taiwan to live with her Dad. In a way this may be an answer to prayer, since she has gotten into smoking and drinking here in Kinmen and she's been having a bad affect on some of the other kids here. But I really hated to see her go. I'd been praying that she would quit hating me and I could be her friend again, but I guess that's not going to happen.
---It's like a horrible, unhalting sickness, slowly overtaking all of our friends. Some seem to get better after a while, while others are sucked in, until they change into something you don't even recongnize. It's a horrible spiritual darkness. You can see it coming, and sometimes you feel so helpless. Last week BJ told us that she saw "It" in Leon's eyes. There was no need to explain It: we all know It too well. First their eyes change. They just look hard and cruel. Soon the smile is totally unseen. They act guilty when you around. Then It happens. Literally overnight, your dear friend is gone and in her shell is a cold, hateful, miserible person. You feel like screeming "Who are you? What have you done with my friend?" Seeing It in someones eyes is one of the most horrible things you can see. And it seems to be just a matter of time before It happens to all of our friends. Big Angel, Kelly, Allen, Leon, Gilly...and a bunch more who's names I don't even know. I feel so helpless.
---If this post seems kinda depressed, that's 'cause it is. I've been feeling really depressed this past week and a half. Our team has been under some real intense spiritual attack, and we've all felt a spirit of depression and exhaustion. Guys, please lift us all up. Drew said he feels like right now is one of the most critital times for our team. And in the past few weeks we've had more chances to share with people than ever before. Please, please lift us up. I don't know what is about to happen, but it's something big.
---But not everything is depressing. After lunch I was reading Exra 10 and I found this verse :1 "Now when Ezra had prayed, and when he had confessed, weeping and casting himself down before the house of God, there assembled unto him out of Israel a very great congregation of men and women and children: for the people wept very sore. 2 And Shechaniah the son of Jehiel, one of the sons of Elam, answered and said unto Ezra, We have trespassed against our God..." Ezra did not have to worry about "doing something" to make the people see their sin: his only job was to keep his relationship with God growing and follow his direction and God brought the "very great congregation" ready to repent.
---I love Newsboys worship music. Shawn's got a couple of their CD's on his computer and I've come to really love them. Right now I'm listening to "Father, Blessed Father". Thank God for refreshing music!
---It's like a horrible, unhalting sickness, slowly overtaking all of our friends. Some seem to get better after a while, while others are sucked in, until they change into something you don't even recongnize. It's a horrible spiritual darkness. You can see it coming, and sometimes you feel so helpless. Last week BJ told us that she saw "It" in Leon's eyes. There was no need to explain It: we all know It too well. First their eyes change. They just look hard and cruel. Soon the smile is totally unseen. They act guilty when you around. Then It happens. Literally overnight, your dear friend is gone and in her shell is a cold, hateful, miserible person. You feel like screeming "Who are you? What have you done with my friend?" Seeing It in someones eyes is one of the most horrible things you can see. And it seems to be just a matter of time before It happens to all of our friends. Big Angel, Kelly, Allen, Leon, Gilly...and a bunch more who's names I don't even know. I feel so helpless.
---If this post seems kinda depressed, that's 'cause it is. I've been feeling really depressed this past week and a half. Our team has been under some real intense spiritual attack, and we've all felt a spirit of depression and exhaustion. Guys, please lift us all up. Drew said he feels like right now is one of the most critital times for our team. And in the past few weeks we've had more chances to share with people than ever before. Please, please lift us up. I don't know what is about to happen, but it's something big.
---But not everything is depressing. After lunch I was reading Exra 10 and I found this verse :1 "Now when Ezra had prayed, and when he had confessed, weeping and casting himself down before the house of God, there assembled unto him out of Israel a very great congregation of men and women and children: for the people wept very sore. 2 And Shechaniah the son of Jehiel, one of the sons of Elam, answered and said unto Ezra, We have trespassed against our God..." Ezra did not have to worry about "doing something" to make the people see their sin: his only job was to keep his relationship with God growing and follow his direction and God brought the "very great congregation" ready to repent.
---I love Newsboys worship music. Shawn's got a couple of their CD's on his computer and I've come to really love them. Right now I'm listening to "Father, Blessed Father". Thank God for refreshing music!
posted by Samuel @ 8:36 AM
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